oh my. i haven't blogged in like 3 months time. ah well.... nothing much to update other than my wonderful slacking days (: lets see... i've sudd revived my love for badminton. been playing like at least once a week or maybe if i'm insane enough 2 or 3 times a week. lol. usually just once tho. yuying and i are trying to keep to 2 a week. well we all (well not all) know why i once a few years back had a sudden love  for badm and why it ended. haha. this time its different. anyone interested to play let me know! (: anywayyyyyy.. what else.. oh yes wii rocks! haha. delly and i found damn alota songs we absolutely loveeeee! actually i think kang loves some of those songs too. considering she actually asked me to check out the youtube video the day after. haha! ah well. we're all muscians inta making (: hmm what else.. oh yes i still haven't started looking for a job yet. yes i know i'm a slacker and we're heading for a recession. i know i know. don't have to nag. and yes i know like 97% of my friends are already working. pffftttt. i also realised how many of my friends are now working in the financial consultant or insurance sector. SCARYYYYY! haha. well so long as they don't start using and manipulating me like a certain someone (i think only meilin and yuying that know who im talking abt? haha) that was really gross la. haven't felt such pure disgust in such a long time. hmm. oh and i've been borrowing far too many lib books. haha. ask delly.. i'm sure she has been borrowing somewhat the same books as me (: we're both hooked man. you guys shd check out laurell k. hamilton... her vampire hunter series are ABSOLUTELY AMAZINGGGGGGG!!!!! (: (: (: once you start you really just can't stop! haha. speaking of which i got to finish this damn book now and try to return it before i got to pay lib dues. oh my what a nerd i am.

random pics of my old self and her happy tanned sporty (kinda) moments haha!


a tribute to union camp 05.. INGO ROCKS!! (:

da jie posing.. lol

fright night @ hawparvilla!~ it was reallyyyy scary! haha

the horrible food we ate :/

ingo guys being gay. LOL

TAU POK!! self explanatory haha!

all geared up for war!!!! (:

post war. haha

a little game we love to play. ouch obi obi! hehe. NO MERCY!


one of my fav pics. inta bus at sentosa (:

one of the many ingo outings we had aft camp (:

got carried along with the waves. only joycelyn (right) managed to pose proper! lol



ayyy. i really miss campssss :/


feeling much much better already (: think i've passed my crummy shummy stage in life and moved on to better things. hoorayy! its about time. i don't care as much abt my stupid eczema even tho the emotional and physical scars still exist. i no longer look back as much as i used to. so goodbye all the ghosts of my past that haunt me. i re-ignited my love for sports and all things water (: haha. been doing qt a bit of blading and swimming etc recently.. makes me realise i'm a water baby at heart. lol. even tho i do spend alot of the time inta pool FLOATING ARD instead of doing laps. HAHAH. meeting up with people i love. doing stupid things. chatting awayyyy.. eating loveeeeeelyyy food. hehe. all these things just make my day. i no longer try as hard to cover up the scars and i'm even working towards a tan. i used to be brown most of the time and i hate hate hate white. i'm glad the burden has lifted and i'm moving to the 'light' WAHHA. you all prolly can't really catch the joke unless you've known me awhile. heh. haha. i basically feel reunited with my old self again.. the self-distancing was worrying me for qt awhile making me moody and emoo-y at times.. but im moving on. haha. diving has been absolutely wonderful!! theory's a bitch to remember.. so many details omg. but the practical is heaven! (: loveeeeee diving!! can't wait for my diving trip with my family (including my sis yayy!) to sunny sunny redang! wooooohooooo! hopefully the batam trip with shums pam and jesse will materialize and so will the melb trip! (: and to all.. no i am not looking for a job ata moment i'm just enjoying life. yes i know i shd start soon.. and no i don't want or intend to ata moment. goodness. i know its not the singaporean style to take like a year break before starting work for life but its what i feel like doing ata moment (: and its what i'm going to do!

things that are keeping me happy at the moment :

• shan is back!!! (: love you love you! (altho u won't blif what her first words to me onta phone were -.- )
• the hse is a-painting once again into fields of grassy green.. hues of lemon and peach!! (:
• jean is finally back aft mia-ing for like 3 wks! skype jus isn't the same wout you love haha
• my sis is coming back onta 26th for 3 wks!! ARGHHH!! (:
• the prospect of amk yong tau foo coming monday is killing me!! hehe

A genius says goodbye for good

He says:

If God, for a second, forgot what I have become
and granted me a
little bit more of life, I would use it to the
best of my ability.

I wouldn't possibly, say everything that is
in my mind, but I would
be more thoughtful of all I say.

I would give merit to things not for what they
are worth, but for
what they mean to express.

I would sleep little, I would dream more,
because I know that for
every minute that we close our eyes, we waste
60 seconds of light.

I would walk while others stop; I would awake
while others sleep.

If God would give me a little bit more of life,
I would dress in a
simple manner, I would place myself in front of
the sun, leaving not
only my body, but my soul naked at its mercy.

To all men I would say how mistaken they are
when they think that
they stop falling in love when they grow old,
without knowing that
they grow old when they stop falling in love.

I would give wings to children, but I would
leave it to them to learn how
to fly by themselves.

To old people I would say that death
doesn't arrive when they grow old, but

with forgetfulness.

I have learned so much with you all, I have
learned that everybody
wants to live on top of the mountain, without
knowing that true
happiness is obtained in the journey taken
& the form used to reach
the top of the hill.

I have learned that when a newborn baby holds,
with its little hand,
his father's finger, it has trapped him for
the rest of his life.

I have learned that a man has the right and
obligation to look down
at another man, only when that man needs help
to get up from the ground.

Say always what you feel, not what you think.
If I knew that today is
the last time that that I am going to see you
asleep, I would hug you
with all my strength and I would pray to the
Lord to let me be the
guardian angel of your soul.

If I knew that these are the last moments to
see you, I would say 'I love you'.

There is always tomorrow, and life gives us
another opportunity to do
things right, but in case I am wrong, and today
is all that is left to
me, I would love to tell you how much I love
you & that I will never forget you.

Tomorrow is never guaranteed to anyone, young
or old. Today could be
the last time to see your loved ones, which is
why you mustn't wait;
do it today, in case tomorrow never arrives. I
am sure you will be
sorry you wasted the opportunity today to give
a smile, a hug, a kiss,
and that you were too busy to grant them their
last wish.

Keep your loved ones near you; tell them in
their ears and to their
faces how much you need them and love them.
Love them and treat them
well; take your time to tell them 'I am
sorry';' forgive me',' please'
'thank you', and all those loving
words you know.

Nobody will know you for your secret thought.
Ask the Lord for wisdom and
strength to express them.

Show your friends and loved ones how important
they are to you.

Send this letter to those you love. If you
don't do it
today...tomorrow will be like yesterday, and if
you never do it, it
doesn't matter, either, the moment to do it
is now.

For you, With much love,
Your Friend,
Gabriel Garcia Marquez

Death is nothing at all

Death is nothing at all

I have only slipped away into the next room

I am I and you are you

Whatever we were to each other

That we are still

Call me by my old familiar name

Speak to me in the easy way you always used

Put no difference into your tone

Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow

Laugh as we always laughed

At the little jokes we always enjoyed together

Play, smile, think of me, pray for me

Let my name be ever the household word that it always was

Let it be spoken without effort

Without the ghost of a shadow in it

Life means all that it ever meant

It is the same as it ever was

There is absolute unbroken continuity

What is death but a negligible accident?

Why should I be out of mind

Because I am out of sight?

I am waiting for you for an interval

Somewhere very near

Just around the corner

All is well.

Nothing is past; nothing is lost

One brief moment and all will be as it was before

How we shall laugh at the trouble of parting when we meet again!

Canon Henry Scott-Holland, 1847-1918, Canon of St Paul's Cathedral

'The King of Terrors', a sermon on death delivered in St Paul's Cathedral on Whitsunday 1910, while the body of King Edward VII was lying in state at Westminster:

published in Facts of the Faith, 1919

wow. its been a pretty long time since i've wrote. haha. been busy GRADUATING! HAHA. omg i can't believe its over. taking a super super long break before i start work for good. been busy 'renovating' or 'refurnishing' the house. painting... clearing... shifting.. goodness. its crazy!! haha. but i'm pleased with the end results. haha ask meilin and ping! they've seen it and approved (: haha. its now a comfy zone (my room only sad to say) for everyone to stay over and chillax. hahaha! i hate it when pple use the word chillax.. exactly why i just used it. haha. busy going out.. meeting people.. waiting for the big holiday plans to come!! one with kangs... one with cait.. one to melbourne (thinking of staying there a couple of months).. penang.. more to come! i just want to go all out! really really happy shums is back!! (: met up with her and we both have not changed thats for sure. haha. my food face, supper, loud laugh buddy!! we're too alike in so many ways la! haha. pam hurry back from your USA!!! its time for a gathering (: so much to do.. so much time! awesome. this will be the best holiday yet! haha. char is coming back from japan... everyone's exams have ended.. bridge mahjong ktv gatherings PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE! hahaha. little trips with people i love (or not haha) sporty daysss.. cool cool nights chilling tgt. ARGHHH!!! i wish this holiday will never end (:


LETS GO OUT PEOPLE! (:

two of them no longer dying of starvation and scrawny. beautiful fur.. enormously fat. super pampered. and apparently very gay (they're both males). sorry too lazy to rotate pic so just tilt your head wont ya! (:

in loving memory of xiao hei who never failed to make me annoyed and to make me laugh. greedy yet ever so lovable. at least u died at a ripe old age. i'm sorry if i ever did anything to accelerate your death :( i feel extremely guilt ridden as it is.
xiao hei and xiao bai (more grey actually.. and my parents named them not me) when we first found them abandoned outside lenni's hse in pathetic shape and state. they were left in a small fish tank with minimal food and water with their fur all messed up and only a small netting separating them and the 'friendly' neighbourhood cats or strays that tried to attack/eat them :/ my parents and i rushed there at midnight immed when we heard about the situation.
suddenly decided to post this pic cos i REALLY REALLY MISS MELBOURNE! hahaha. miss evtg abt it.. even tho jean just told me a whole stuff of racist episodes that happened to her. haha. miss evtg abt it!! (: so much has happened in the past few wks.. really glad i got my family there (later half at least) and especially cheri and char who've just been a constant shoulder of support. they are truly MY PILLAR OF STRENGTH (private joke) love you guys tons man. what a crying fest it has been. lets see... one of my chinchillas passed away.. it was like the same re-run as the time my first chinchilla died. same evtg except it happened so suddenly and it was all my fault.. i really do think so.. even tho everyone claims it isnt. if i just hadn't gone for the st nicks thing at night.. if i hadn't let it out of its cage into the play arena or if i hadn't let it out with the grey chin.. or if i hadn't eaten prata supper at thomson for such a long time.. so many ifs but it doesn't change the fact that xiao hei still passed away inta end and i ended up paying a bomb for the vet fees even tho the doc only prod it ard for 10min before it died.. i had to pay $150.. it was suppose to be $200 (basic fee excluding all the jabs and what not) for first timers but i think i was crying so badly that i not only made the receptionist cry but also made her change her mind and charge me $150 instead. goodness. according to cel, james tan veterinary clinic is as bad as mount pleasant (or mount UNPLEASANT i shd say).. how ironic or coincidental that they are just next to each other on whitley road. ah well. at least i didnt have to pay exhorbitant cab fare this time round cos char drove (: thank goodness for the 2 of them. if not i wld have to go thru the whole ordeal alone. they accompanied me till 7am and we brought our digging tools down to the playground and dug our little grave. we all nv realised how tiring and extremely difficult digging into the ground is.. the roots are killer. i decided to be sentimental and packed small bits of chinchilla food and alfalfa grass into a tiny plastic wrap to put into the grave on top of him. He was always the most greedy of the four chins.. so i thought it was rather apt. ah well. char and cheri if u guys are reading this.. thank you so much for being there. this is not the first time you've went outta the way to help me out and i appreciate u guys tons! my oldest and good-est friends around (: you guys were the 3rd in line that i called after i discovered xiao hei on the floor not moving and i broke down in a panic. haha. first were my parents (both happened to go on separate overseas trips that fateful week) then jean (cos she is my best fren and a vet so shd wld know what to do) then cheri and char (who has just left my hse 5min ago after they dropped me off from supper). ah well.. after shutting myself away and crying myself to death the whole weekend.. i started to get real emo.. i skipped like 2 wks of sch (to date) ytd (friday) was the first day of lessons that i actually attended in qt a while. goodness. feels like the holidays already! yeah then my kitty (touki) had fleas.. and it was soo traumatizing. i had to buy tons of flea prevention stuff for it.. revolution and flea spray.. which cost abt $100. god knows how much i spent on the kitty already. but thank god that episode is over. the kitty is as clean as ever!! or as clean as it'll ever get! heh. the stupid thing is.. as i am typing this now.. touki has been mia for 12 hrs already. which is odd cos he is nv gone for more than 4 hrs a time. and i can't find him at all his fav spots in hall. i take this as a very bad sign. searched for him 3 times over.. but to no avail. its saturday.. and im going home aft proj meeting.. prolly gotta leave the litter and his food stuff outside and pray he returns. it wld be really ironic that after all that happened he decided to be a stray cat after all. ah well. lets not think of that now. another pet related thing that happened is that my bunnies gave birth to two bald red small things/babies! haha. i was initially very grossed out by how they looked. sad to say.. one died after a day.. and the other the next day. i think it was lack of milk from the mother. which is another odd way to die. also, 2 babies per birth is very little. according to jean (who referred to her textbook and tutored me all about bunnies) the range is 4-12 and the average is 5-8. 2 was abnormally low. i figured maybe the parents already ate up some before we sighted/discovered them. i was very very disappointed when they died. i spent the two days after they were born being the paranoid 'nanny'. constantly checking on them. making sure everything is alright. think i was spot checking every hour. i even woke up specially at 7am just to spy and see if the mommy is feeding the babies. ugh. wasted efforts. and the mom went thru so much (did u know that mother rabbits pull out their own fur leaving gaps of fur on their backs and stomach to make a cosy warm nest for the babies? so damn brutal and painful). i mean giving birth itself is already no joke. ah well. now is the crunch time. kang just updated me that exams are in 2 wks. okay im sure most of u knew that but i didnt. somehow i tot i had another 3wks or 4. heh. ah well. but exams are the last thing on my mind for now. next wk i still got 2 proj deadlines.. 2 tests and 1 presentation. how busy can one get! goodness. anw i am really glad for the constant meet ups with cheri!! (: and i enjoyed my bdae celebrations! thanks all u guys! love all the presents and cards/collages!! will upload pics soon! (: can't believe i hit DOUBLE DOUBLE already.. ahha. sucks. feeling like a grandma ata moment. haha. ah well.. cheers to all the other fellow 'grandmas' out there. i finally managed to right my body clock (slept 2am woke up 8am) for today at least.. feeling refreshed and ready to read more abt ever fascinating environmental science (i am not being sarcastic it really is a v interesting topic!) cheers to the crazy wk ahead!

in a funky (and i dont mean gd) mood now. all thanks to a few sentences i just heard. you are soooooo bitchy! sooooo loud... so inconsiderate and insensitive. hate hate hate! ugh! funny how little things can annoy u so much and set u into 'mild' depression... emo_gal86 here i come! or perhaps its my lack of slp. only slept 2 hrs the night before. ahhhhh. just printed out all my 3204  lect notes and etc.. soooooo many things to do this wk and the next.. check out my busy schedule.

18/3 : history essay due 5pm
19/3 : e-learning proj meeting 2pm (this means i need to read up on all my lects..ugh)
20/3 : copyright proj meeting 2-4pm (this means i need to do all my research and ppt slides)
21/3 : finish e-learning tut by 5pm and maybe tourism proj grp meeting (if not 22/3)
22/3 : try to borrow astro books from lib, read up and summarize, explain and cite :/
23/3 : spend whole day finishing up tourism J1 + J2 write ups (total 2000 words)
24/3 : tourism final submission (A1 + A2 + J1 + J2 and prototypes if any)


i really want to die. super xiong la this sem!! goodness. and i have decided 
to tell my parents abt touki this weekend. wonder what their response 
will be. well i guess one can only pray. 

6 little eggs on the run
they f*ck each other three goes
boom dubi dom
watch out be safe so
3 little eggs had sex
1 win and 2 explode goes
boom dubi dom
watch out be safe so
2 little eggs in the sun
one sleep too long goes boom boom
boom dubi dom
the story ends with 1 little egg was blind
make suicide with a pen bomb
boom dubi dom
another story come

atonement is an amazing film. amazing. absolutely brilliant. the cinematography, the plot, lines, and all the in betweens as the scenes transverse from one to another is just captivating, mesmerizing and brutally honest! anyone interested in drama, romance, adaption and war shd definitely watch this show. James McAvoy's acting was magnificent and of star quality!! i am so glad my mom bought us tickets to see this show! it inspired me so much and kept me pondering on and on about questions of life and meaning long after the show ended. and even got me to blog after soooooooo long! haha. yes i realised i have been too lazy to blog. basically can't be bothered la. anyone got the book 'atonement' by Ian McEwan? i definitely want to read it. maybe a trip to a library i shall go (:

I waited 'til I saw the sun

I don't know why I didn't come

I left you by the house of fun

I don't know why I didn't come

I don't know why I didn't come



When I saw the break of day

I wished that I could fly away

Instead of kneeling in the sand

Catching teardrops in my hand



My heart is drenched in wine

But you'll be on my mind

Forever



Out across the endless sea

I would die in ecstasy

But I'll be a bag of bones

Driving down the road alone



My heart is drenched in wine

But you'll be on my mind

Forever



Something has to make you run

I don't know why I didn't come

I feel as empty as a drum

I don't know why I didn't come

I don't know why I didn't come

I don't know why I didn't come

amazzzinnnggggg!!!!!! (: its been a great hols so far! been slacking ard (as usual)... swimming (only thrice so far cos of the stupid rainy days)... cycling.. shopping/window shopping (i dont know why i have nth in mind i want to buy)... eating around.. haha.. meeting up with old friends.. hanging out with my family.. good times are a rolling (: happinesss!! i've been more or less ignoring or rather forgetting abt the comp... my hps.. and just focusing on the 'offline' world for now. and im loving it! (: cant wait for the holidays to come! recently i've amazingly managed to right my body clock! been sleeping ard 7-10pm and waking 7-10am!! haha.. almost too good to be true.. and i actually get annoyed if i slp past 11am. haha! omg. what a turn over eh! bet all who know me will not believe a word im saying about this.. but its true!! im trying not to destroy my wonderful sleeping and waking timings but i have this feeling it wont last much longer :/

first i'd like to share my love with a few people i'd like to thank cos without em i'd nv have gotten thru the sem. (me and my emo periods towards the end that is). not that i went thru v troubled times.. there were many (mostly) happy times and all just that these are the people who were always there for me and just kept me going!! (:

jean : who else but you my dear (: always there for me even tho you're far away. glad we both put in so much effort to keep in touch and knowing (almost) evtg abt each other and being there for each other. you're the best friend i cld ever want and ask for (:

joyce : who else but my wonderful sis who even helped me find my research materials!!! ahaahha (:

kang : always there for me. always there but always late. haha! change the latter wont you (: anyways i think you've grown and matured so so so much. v proud of you. so focused and determined. you make me proud babe! (: i think ur hse is a really good study environment btw.. think del might agree haha

del : who else can i complain and whine to if not you? haha. altho u alws start(or die rather) earlier than me. i'll always rmb our 'damage control' days in jc and the first two years of uni (even tho we're in diff schools) we almost always wind up in similar situations. hahaha. aiyah.. u and kang and jean. old friendships nv die la. (:

shimin : hello my new found friend!! (: you're the sweetest sleepiest (napster) silliest and most caring and innocent friend i have i think! haha. i was just telling jean the other day that i think two of you might hit it off rather well. haha. will tell u more abt it when i meet u tmr!! (: anyways.. you're my new best friend in hall babe!! nothing much i can say here to tell ya how much i appreciate yaaa!! (: cheers to the new sem ahead!! yayy!!

meilin : known each other since our first year in hall but only really truly bonded with you this sem! great times studying worrying stressing eating slacking sporting with you babe!! (: nv thought our friendship cld go as far as it has... its amazing!! you're a wonderful and funny friend and im looking forward to next sem when ping n all are back as well and all of us can hang out tgt!! we must study hard/harder this time!! (: hope ur IA goes well. haha

ping : i miss you hurry back!! its been great msning and emailing you !!! transferring songs all. dont know why christmas always reminds me of you! haha (:


oh my! cant wait for krabi trip to come! apparently its been cut short to 4 days (20-23) due to unforeseen circumstances.. but we're 'replenishing' it with a 2nd trip to somewhere. haha! last i heard my mom was considering bintan or sth. not sure. but either way im still excited! (: must play to my hearts content this hols before the new sem starts cos im gna have to work doubly hard with 6 mods. ughhhh :/ okay lets not think abt school for now...

joyce is back.
shan is back.
jean is NOT back :(

few random thoughts of the day...

1) i really really want to eat seafood!!!
2) how am i going to get my wonderful tan if it keeps raining damn it! (omg i sound like a bimbs)
3) wow this apple is really sour.. ughh
4) all the girls in the PCD contest is really really talented eh..
5) why oh why won't u tell me about it? its saddens me.
6) i really wanna play vball/badm/tennis/squash or anything!!
7) KTV KTV KTV KTV!!!

for once i am at peace (:

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart)
i am never without it(anywhere i go you go,my dear;
and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)
i want no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;
which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)



-ee cummings

It's not far down to paradise
At least it's not for me
And if the wind is right you can sail away
And find tranquility
The canvas can do miracles
Just you wait and see
Believe me

It's not far to never never land
No reason to pretend
And if the wind is right you can find the joy
Of innocence again
The canvas can do miracles
Just you wait and see
Believe me


Sailing
Takes me away
To where I've always heard it could be
Just a dream and the wind to carry me
And soon I will be free


Fantasy
It gets the best of me
When I'm sailing
All caught up in the reverie
Every word is a symphony
Won't you believe me


It's not far back to sanity
At least it's not for me
And when the wind is right you can sail away
And find serenity
The canvas can do miracles
Just you wait and see
Believe me


Title: Christopher Cross - Sailing lyrics

its been a really long time since i've cared about my blog, combined blogs, facebook, friendster, emails (Sorry ping) and all those nonsense. what keeps me happy is just skyping with jean, hs and del. the 3 very impt (but not the only impt) people in my life. (kang u wld be in this list to if u didnt KEEP MIAING!!!!!!!!!) ever so grateful for em if not ill prolly nv get thru my emo days all. i truly think its amazing how best and good friends can still remain the same and even grow closer despite vast geographical distances. and how some of ur gd frens who are in sg can just grow apart or not see each other for months and months and years and years. i tell ya anyone who gives ya the i-cannot-make-long-distance-friendships-or-relationships-work is bullshit! jean n shan have been all the way in melb for like 4-6 years now and just take a look at us! (of course i understand that diff people diff wants, needs, personality etc etc) im just saying. very very odd. i've been emoing and emoing on and off for the past month. and i really have no idea why. its really qt bad. the kind that u start to ponder about life? and now that the exams are drawing closer and closer.. i guess it sorta makes it worse. but well. as of yesterday i have declared myself a self-proclaimed nerd and focus completely catching up with all my god damn readings which i didnt bother to touch the whole sem. like i said.. once a last min slacker.. always a last min slacker. so i've gotten rid or forced myself to not think about my library allergies and start picking up the slack. i've also decided to screw projects. i've been working way too hard for the projects so far.. not as tho im gna get any bonus points or anything so screw it. its studying for final exam time. i shall put project works at a corner until i can no longer shy from it anymore. just 2 more weeks 2 more horrible weeks to the god damn exams. and this time i hardly have any breaks at all!! my exams will be over in a week! can u blif it!! in 5 days to be exact.. 26-30. how delightful. which means no matter what i die die also must finish studying for it by the 25. GOD DAMN! talk abt unhealthy stress levels. well at least in 2 weeks my sis and shan will be coming back fr melb and i will be -oh crap- very distracted!!!!!! ahh shucks. well hopefully i can work my ass off now so i can spend time with them when they get back cos I DEFINITELY WILL!! somehow. force em to study w me or sth. ahahaha. even tho shan's exams are just over and my sis has alr graduated. LOL. ah screw this im going watch the new south park episode 'guitar queer' now. ahhaa. let me part with a few words or thoughts.

1) if you really go for her. i will be a lil disgusted, speechless but very indifferent as it doesnt concern me. good luck.

2) kang stop miaing!

3) you two still disgust n annoy me.

4) ping i miss u!! sorry for not replying ya email yet. i will soon! (:

5) anyone has more fam guy, simpsons or these kinda stuff to watch?

6) i am currently a phantom in hall. nv thought this day wld come.

7) hall food really really sucks n the survey aint gna change nothing so y bother? what we need is uncle vincent back damn it! when will we ever learn?

8) okay jess stop emoing n procrastinating.. study regardless of whether there are study buddies or u feel like crap or you're really tired or sian. all for the greater good right?

9) stop thinking about what could be and focus on reality woman!

10) why am i becoming an empty lifeless shell in so many ways?

time certainly flies. its the mid term break. and as meilin keeps telling me... the exams are coming! the next thing u know it.. the bloody exams! i was abt to tell her that is most certainly not the case when i realised that almost 2 months just flew by without me even knowing it! bloody hell. some kinda recess break this is.. i spent almost all of it on project work! haha. i know i had alot of time to play ard and go out.. which i did! but still! i nv had it this bad before!!! whats with this semester i wonder.. everything seems to be doublefold and doubletime! -.- anw at least there were fun moments! hahaha (: went out shopping and eating ard twice w lala and cindy.. caught chuck and larry and invasion. C&L's pretty funny i must say! and invasion was not bad.. tho not the ending i expected at all. it was all too easy. i expected it to end sth like resident evil! hahaha. what can i say. great expectations! my only regret for movies are not watching transformers and hairspray. DAMN! hahaha. well at least i watched hairspray online.. the online version of transfomers was icky! doesn't do the original justice one bit! oh yea! before i forget...!!!


HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY KC!!!! (:
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!
WISH U WERE HERE SO I CLD GIVE YOU ONE BIGGGG HUG :/

(shan dont get jealous ah! HAPPY BELATED 21ST TO YOU TOO! I MISS U BOTH REALLY.. HAHA)

the weeks nearly coming to an end. and i stayed home the whole week! amazing! made me realise how much i missed home!! the aircon.. family... great food.. comfort.. everything is just wonderful... ahha only thing is i miss my th neighbours!! (shimin i know u think its u! really want to ah!) haha. but still.. ill see them in like less than 48 hrs. haha. recently been hanging out with my proj mate buddies from cybercrime. very interesting. hahaa. nv bonded so closely with a proj grp before! (excluding cel and cait and all my old buds of course) i've even come to realise that jialian is super funny laaaa! ahahhaa. alws kena bullied by everyone. ahah (: anyway i've come to realise that the more i talk to cindy.. the more i realise how goal orientated she is.. and how i am not. and how practical and real she is. makes me see my future clearer each time. HAAH. funny isnt it. cindy guiding me towards my future. lol. she talks alot of crap.. stuff abt handsome cowboys in her ranch and stuff. ahha! but she does make tons of sense once in many whiles. ahhaa (: love ya babe! whoa! just blogging abt her makes me feel all motivated and driven! perhaps i shall go attempt to study for the first time in a long while! either that or go build up my chinese song base! damn all you purely chi ktv people! hahaha. (:

anyone got an old tamagotchi or digimon that is still workable?
or know where to get one cheap cheap? haha

wow. its already been one month into the school term and i have yet to touch a single bit of reading or lect notes or what not. the only school related thing i've been forced to do so far is project group work. other than that.. nada! this is terrible. i shda known a last min slacker like me couldn't handle taking malay lang.. now im completely lost in tutorial and apparently i have a lang test coming up soon. oh boy! and i can't even su this module!!!! :/ bummer. why do i keep living in ruts.. that i just can't seem to get out of? i really need a study partner or someone who's extremely motivated and influential to influence me or guilt me into studying. anyone up for the job? haha. anyway.. i've finally reached the final phase in my recovery track after a great many weeks. it was soooooooo terribleeeee!! i actually had food phobia.. can anyone imagine MEEEEEEEEEEE having a food phobiaaa?!?!! -.- didnt think so. i was not only fevery, headachey, phlemgy, whole-body-aching, PUKEY, forever nauseous (which is why i didnt dare to eat cos i alws felt like throwing it up aft) and asthmatic. WTF! it was terribleeee!!!! i cldnt slp proper even tho i was lying in bed like 24/7 cos i had to keep blowing my nose.. or sit up cos i was feeling nauseous etc.. it was horrible. now the worst is over and i can start to eat again!! yayyyy! (: going to very quickly gain back whatever weight i lost during those horrible ill days.. hahaa.. but i dont feel sad abt it. anyway.. i haven't really been able to talk to shan or jean or my sis lately.. and i really really miss these 3 people alot. they're one of my closest and bestest friends and i really heart them the most! sad to say since school started i haven't really been able to talk to em either cos im too busy or just cos our timings are damn suey. nonetheless (in case you're reading) i still love you guys many many and we will definitely talk soon okay!! (: hang on despite our never ending piles of homework and all!! we shall thrive to survive!!! ahhaha (: of late, i've been feeling so aimless and misguided. which is making me emo, angsty and very thoughtful (this may not alws be good). sometimes we tend to overthink things... which just makes everything worse. i just pray to god that i'll be more purpose-driven and know what i want to do in the future. its scary to know you're graduating soon but still am not sure what you really want to do in life. it scares me shitless. and im not proud of not knowing at all :/ some guidance perhaps?

wow. i completely forgot abt the existence of my blog. if people didnt remind me.. haha. a whole sem wlda gone by without me typing entries.. haha. anyway tmr or rather in a few hours (as usual) the first day of school would begin.... and boy am i looking forward to it :/ goodbye good ol holidays. i really really enjoyed my holidays this year. and i dont ever want it to end. i dont even miss school at all. haha. unlike some of my dear old friends who are so bored of the hols n cant wait for school to start. dont know why i keep thinking that this is my last 2 sems in hall and in school. and it just makes me so damn sad. i will certainly miss everything and everyone. in one years time it will officially be the end of schooling and hello dreaded work days.. ayyy. been really really really busy at orientation and rag for hall. decided to sign up as a senior attach this year for the hall orientation but i think i ended up doing and putting in the same amount of effort as a councillor last year. how enthu can i get. haha. i shda just signed up as a councillor altho i dont need the points. haha. i dk why this year feels sooooooo different.. maybe i really feel like i have aged.. i can still clique very well with the freshies.. but it just makes me sad to think ill be leaving in a year and saying goodbye to everything. hahaha. i know im whining nonstop abt this but i cant help it. its inevitable but it just all that i can think about now. anyway i like my og alot.. HESSA ROCKS! (: the people in it rock and so far we're still going strong! many scandals in this bonded og but oh well.. what else is new? really dont get why im getting sick and tired of all these scandals as well. makes me think differently of people. which leads to disappointment etc. god damn. i shd just stop thinking altogether shouldnt i? being a tad bit emo girl now since shiping left. meilin's tears were too powerful.. inta end i also teared and welled and teared and spilled all the sadness outta me. its hard losing your really good friends overseas.. i should know. since more than a handful have left me already. we still keep in touch and all but its just sad. even sadder.. it makes me want to go overseas too. why am i stuck in sg while they're all there. HAHAHA. damn! this entry is super emo. ahhaha. okay talk about other stuff now. im back inta super sporting mode. brought in my badm and squash racket!! all ready to do a wide variety of sports and more sports! played vball cum bball with my og the other day n it was so friggin fun! =) the bruises were all worth it! can't wait for our next sporting session! haha. all thanks to snowboarding in skiing in melb that im suddenly inta sporting mood. im even contemplating if i shd bring my blades over to hall. hahaha. anw i cant wait for the holidays to come! apparently im going to krabi near xmas time.. going great barrier reef after i graduate next year!!!! how bloody exciting is that! =) the 2 places i've been dying to go since god knows when! and what better way to go then with your family =) this sem im taking cybercrime, cultural industries, media writing, malay lang (really hope i dont fail this) and entrepreneurial marketing. not sure if i made a very wise decision taking all these modules but its gna be one tough semester ahead for me. and i wont even bother to try telling myself to study harder etc etc.. cz i know im a born slacker and last min studyer and nothings ever gna change that.. i mean the past 21 yrs shd be testimony enough. oh bloody hell! its already 4am and im supposed to meet my og in 4.5 hours for breakfast. -.- once again.. whats new? haha.

IM FINALLY BACK IN SUNNY OH SO HUMID SINGAPORE.. quite sad really. i really really loved melbourne. everytime i go there i want to migrate there. its the place where all my loves are.. where i can be in limbo.. where i get to have so many great experiences and learn so many things. i love the weather.. the winter.. the summer.. the everything.. people culture. amazing.. here are some stuff i did there..

horse riding ( i really nearly died here)
skiing and snowboarding at mt hotham (AWESOME LOVE LOVE LOVE ABSOLUTELY LOVE!! THOROUGHLY ENJOYED MYSELF TO DEATH! HAHA no pun intended..but i did nearly die thr too)
car accident (need i say more)
penguin hunting (i even mastered their calls haha)
eating tons of GREAT food (what can compare.. esp the fredo and gelati oh man!)
FABULOUS SHOPPING!! (they got so much more variety and style there!!)
driving around (it was awesomeeee!!!!!!!!)
mountain climbing at grampians (AWESOME!! DAMN TIRING THO HAHA)
dance and went mad HAHA (the few should know)
ribs buffet at hardrock cafe on bourkes street (THIS WAS AMAZINGGGGGGG!!!!!!)
i became a super huge fan of dips and chips and GUM!!!!! omggggg!
watched harry (extremely disappointing... unfortunately.. think its the worst ever)
fell in love with the chips with salt =)
nonstop grocery shopping! haha
stayed over at jeans and hs's place as well as my sisters of course
fortune telling sessions
SOUTH PARK PINBALL MANIAAAAA!!!!!!!!!! IT WAS SOOOOO FRIGGIN COOL!! WORTH EVERY PENNY! (they had simpsons, addams family, pirates of the carribean etc too!! )
became a splinter surgeon and hairdresser over night =)

the above descriptions dont do melbourne justice at all.. maybe the pictures would. oh god.. how i wish i could have another month there. my parents are going there in about 2 wks for 14days to visit the GREAT BARRIER REEF with my sister!!!!!! HOW JEALOUS!!!!! why did school have to start so early!! if not i cld go with them. ah well. anyway my mom said maybe early next year we can go again =) =) =) that would be paradise.. anyway now im horribly injured all over... bruises.. sprains... blisters.. whatever u ccan think of.. i am experiencing that now.. because of the ski-board trip. but it was worth every fall =) ahahha! in fact that trip is inspiring me to get 2nd hand roller blades!!! but sg roads or so cycle and blade unfriendly. anyone know a good place to get relatively okay cheap blades? hahaa.. anyway DIE HRAD 4 IS AWESOME!!!! im so glad i caught it with del. ahahhaa im so going to find a way to watch 1 , 2 , and 3 now! =) bruce willis is awesome. ahaha! =)

missing all my loves!

goshhhh!!!! its been only 3 days in melb and already i miss the warm sunshine and just the slightest drop of sweat.. how pathetic is that! lolll.. ahhhhaa anw i've been eating tons of good food and normal food and snacks. ahahahha! and went shopping at direct factory outlet. ahhha walked and walked and walked but surprisingly only ended up buying two items compared to last year.. maybe its cz its winter season and last year i went during the summer so there were more things that i cld buy to wear at home.ahahaha. its a whole diff experience staying here. the last time i came to melb i wanted to migrate here.. but that was summer.. winter its so cold i tink ill just stick to holidays. ahahah!!!! i love the people the weather the everything but only when it doesnt freeze me to death! lol.. i've nv put on so many layers of clothing before.. a spax, a shirt, a long sleeze shirt, then a jacket and maybe an outer warmer jacket if need be. ahahhaha TOTALLY BAD. ahahaha. oh my. anyway the food here is amazinggggg.. the scenaries and views are amazing.. everything is amazing.. the customer service everything! ahhaha loving it. tmr im going vintage shopping with jean and huishan. ahhaha and basically just make fools outta ourselves and do stupid things tgt.. we are all so lame and unfunny that its funny! hahaha =) we basically have an odd sense of humour ahhahaha its hilarious. anw alright i shall go catch some slp now. ahahha. hopefully hiding under the thick blanket will make me hahah =)